It’s ok to want connection and fear connection at the same time.
Many of us trauma survivors want connection and at the same time fear connection. If this is you, know that you are not “broken.” You make complete sense, especially as we heal. Be curious about the parts of you who want to keep you safe. What do they need from you? Hold compassion for all of your feelings and your parts. You’re learning about yourself and what you really need, which is amazing!
There is nothing “wrong” with you. There is no shame or timeline for going at your own healing pace. Take your time and slowly learn what works for you.